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some people call me Laura. some people call me Lola. other people call me other things too old for Tumblr.
ambivalent about most things. enthusiastic about food, girl culture & women musicians of the 1990s & early 2000s.

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twitter.com/lolaleviathan:

    uttering-joyous-leaves:

    utopians:

    stepped on a plum (overripe plum) (barefoot) it was on the driveway got out of the car and accidentally (didn’t know it was there) stepped on the plum (warm) (on the ground) (it had fallen from the tree) barefoot (no shoes) wearing long pants (too long) (need to hem them) plum viscera got on them (the pants) unexpected plum on the driveway (hot plum) (97 degrees out) already super hungover (throwing up all morning) (should not have been driving at all) and I stepped out of the car (black car) (97 degrees out) and onto the plum (unexpected) (didn’t know the plum was there) and it burst (plum nightmare on my only good pair of sweatpants) still we find ways to keep ourselves going from day to day

    happy one year anniversary to possibly the best plum poem since william carlos williams’ “this is just to say”

    (via monstrositysuperstar)

    — 1 day ago with 162484 notes

    polkadotmotmot:

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    Zoe Hawk - Hide and Seek, 2023

    (via jacobwren)

    — 1 day ago with 52 notes

    How privileged you are, to be still passionately
    clinging to what you love;
    the forfeit of hope has not destroyed you.

    - Louise Glück, 2004

    How it hurts to hope,
    How it hurts to hope for more,
    How it hurts to hope the future will be better than before

    - boygenius, 2023

    as though it were the artist’s
    duty to create
    hope, but out of what? what?

    - Louise Glück, 2004

    — 3 days ago with 2 notes
    #on hope  #louise glück  #boygenius  #lyrical comparisons 

    feelingofgaze:

    “This is water.” - David Foster Wallace, 2005

    “…for your part, you saw the water.” - Tamsyn Muir, 2020

    I feel asleep in a river, I woke in a river,
    of my mysterious
    failure to die I can tell you
    nothing, neither
    who saved me nor for what cause —

    Louise Glück, “Landscape,” from Averno, 2006

    — 1 week ago with 8 notes
    #lyrical comparisons  #louise glück  #for the fans 

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    warriorofdune:

    diaryofandnwoman:

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    May his memory be a blessing.

    Willem Arondéus (22 August 1894 – 1 July 1943) was a Dutch artist and author who joined the Dutch anti-Nazi resistance movement during World War II. He participated in the bombing of the Amsterdam public records office to hinder the Nazi German effort to identify Dutch Jews and others wanted by the Gestapo. Arondéus was caught and executed soon after his arrest. Yad Vashem recognized Arondéus as Righteous Among the Nations.

    Their attack, which took place on 27 March 1943, was partially successful, and they managed to destroy 800,000 identity cards, and retrieve 600 blank cards and 50,000 guilders. The building was blown up and no one was caught on the night of the attack. However, due to an unknown betrayer, Arondéus was arrested on 1 April 1943. Arondéus refused to give up the rest of his team.

    Arondéus was openly gay before the war and defiantly asserted his sexuality before his execution. His final words were:


    “Tell the people that homosexuals are not by definition weak.”


    From Wikipedia

    He was also a pretty great artist

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    Reblog to include his artwork!

    (via texasjew)

    — 2 weeks ago with 97209 notes

    amidst it all, amidst all of it, boygenius released a new EP today and Julien says the last few lines of the last song were inspired by José Esteban Muñoz’s Cruising Utopia:

    The force of our impact, the fission

    The hum of our contact, the sound of our collisions

    — 3 weeks ago with 2 notes
    #confessionalbooth  #julien baker  #boygenius  #the hum of our contact  #the force of our impact  #the sound of our collisions  #this is just a boygenius blog now and i ain't sorry 
    boygenius lines I feel personally attacked by, ranked
    1. skip the exit to our old street and go home / go home alone
    2. you think you’re a good person because you won’t punch me in the stomach
    3. my father before me, his mother before him
    4. there is something about you that I will always recognize
    5. cried at yr show with the teenagers
    6. so would you teach me I’m the villain, aren’t I? / aren’t I the one constantly repentin’ for a difficult mind? / push me down into the water like a sinner, hold me under / and I’ll never come up again
    7. I don’t know why I am the way I am
    8. I can’t hide from you like I hide from myself
    9. an incantation like an anti-curse / or even a blessing
    10. I’m swimmin’ back / you say you don’t have to make it bad / just ‘cause you know how
    11. I remember who I am when I’m with you
    12. Solomon had a point when he wrote Ecclesiastes / if nothing can be known, then stupidity is holy
    13. you’ve never done me wrong, except for that one time / that we don’t talk about / because it doesn’t matter anymore / who won the fight / I don’t know, we’re not keeping score.
    14. always an angel, never a god
    15. I wanna be happy
    16. I’m ready to walk into my room without lookin’ for you
    17. you made me feel like an equal, but I’m better than you and you should know that by now
    18. I wanna hear one song without thinking of you
    19. it would only take the energy to fix it
    20. I never thought you’d happen to me
    21. tried to be a halfway decent friend /wound up a bad comedian
    22. there’s something in the static / I think I’ve been having revelations
    — 1 month ago with 2 notes
    #boygenius  #phoebe bridgers  #lucy dacus  #julien baker 

    I recently made a Tumblr for my novel-in-progress because why not? https://sneakyteeth.tumblr.com/

    — 1 month ago with 3 notes
    silver-trumpets:
“boykeats:
“September Affirmation (Don’t Be Afraid) by Keaton St. James
”
[ID:
The leaves are changing
from emerald to gold and I’m changing for the better!
I’m changing for the better!
I’m changing for the better!
I’m changing for...

    silver-trumpets:

    boykeats:

    September Affirmation (Don’t Be Afraid) by Keaton St. James

    [ID:

    The leaves are changing
    from emerald to gold and I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better!
    I’m changing for the better! I have to believe
    that I will

    End ID.]

    (via texasjew)

    — 1 month ago with 154200 notes