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    Evan says the idea that you can be transformed by love
    is melodramatic and childish, the kind of thing you leave
    behind at the last slumber party or give up the day you stop
    actually pondering the existence of unicorns. He says
    love unveils you. That whoever you were you still are.

    Only now maybe you’re more so. You can afford courage.
    Evan says it makes you shameless- that it’s safe now
    to reclaim whoever you were before you became embarrassed.
    He says we all masquerade as impassive people because
    passion exposes ourselves as assailable (a word that means

    defenseless). That love unmasks us and that’s risky. But
    essential. This past year, I’ve sat back, quit asking for anything.
    Evan says that love lets you be greedy, allows you to grasp
    what you need and keep it. That we can’t be cheap with each other.
    Sometimes he tests me from behind the lens of the camera,

    Tell me what terrifies you. Tell me who is most necessary for your
    survival. If I fidget he’ll insist I’m not answering honestly. Replay
    the tape to show me where my eyes shifted away from him.
    Evan says that he doesn’t trust people who don’t take drugs,
    since that signals an inability to surrender to someone else.

    Even early civilizations built rituals around narcotics. I don’t see
    what’s so ceremonial about Evan and his friend smoking pot
    to play Vice City, what sort of emotional integrity gets celebrated
    the nights he cuts a few lines so we can screw longer. But I’m young,
    Evan says, lucky he’s patient. He wishes I’d just let him instruct me.

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    The Tutor, Eireann Corrigan (via grammatolatry)
    — 2 years ago with 109 notes
    #poetryforthepeople  #eireann corrigan