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not reticent, I'm Renaissance.
quasi-academic. too old for Tumblr.
some people call me Laura. some people call me Lola. other people call me other things.
ambivalent about most things. enthusiastic about food, reception studies, Pretty Little Liars & women musicians of the 1990s & early 2000s.

twitter.com/lolaleviathan:

    I have been making a bunch of silly new Tumblrs as research for Excitable Media and here are the ones that exist so far: 

    ablogthat

    lasvaguest

    there’s also swizzlethis, the Tumblr I made a few years ago where I uploaded and commented on my old zine from high school which has a lot to do with the same concerns I want to explore here now

    and I made one with my real full name on it, which I have never done before and I’m not sure what I’m going to do with it. 

    — 5 days ago with 4 notes
    #excitable media  #confessionalbooth 
    http://lazz.tumblr.com/post/96813907023/overview-this-project-group-will-explore-and-push →

    lazz:

    feelingofgaze:

    lazz:

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    Overview

    This project group will explore and push the rhetorical limits of social media platforms, researching and practicing inventive uses of these composing technologies. Rather than positioning social media as antithetical to critical thinking and attentive rhetorical practice—as is…

    I am involved with this thing!

    how can i stay updated with the project? would love to know more. start-anywhere + feelingofgaze

    the short answer is that the project won’t exist in one place until mid-spring at the earliest.

    but I will be messing around on Tumblr this semester and other people will be working on projects on Twitter and Facebook and Snapchat this fall. 

    — 5 days ago with 24 notes
    #excitable media 

    "that’s the beauty and the power and the glory of vagueblogging." 

    — 5 days ago with 2 notes
    #vagueblogging  #vagueblogging ftw 
    further observations

    "I swear to God we thought we were a party band." - Kristin Hersh in the liner notes to Throwing Muses’ In a Doghouse compilation 

    this is how I always felt about my online persona [ed. as a teen. also now.]: I thought I was this hilarious goofball kind of mocking my own drama as I exorcised it; other people used words like “intense” to describe me. 

    [ed. maybe because] I used a staggering number of Ani DiFranco quotations as subject lines. 

    — 6 days ago with 2 notes
    #livejournalmemories  #kristin hersh  #confessionalbooth  #so many drafts so little time 

    also on this day mb think about this one

    which might also be called “Washington,” amirite

    "This is one of my favorite Mirah songs, and indeed definitely my favorite anti-war song. It’s not bitter, just kinda like, ‘Hey guys, remember this?’" - user Askew on SongMeanings, 6 January 2007 

    — 1 week ago with 1 note
    #jamz  #mirah 
    THE PARIS REVIEW:Has writing been a type of salvation?
    JAMES BALDWIN:I’m not so sure! I’m not sure I’ve escaped anything. One still lives with it, in many ways. It’s happening all around us, every day. It’s not happening to me in the same way, because I’m James Baldwin; I’m not riding the subways and I’m not looking for a place to live. But it’s still happening. So salvation is a difficult word to use in such a context. I’ve been compelled in some ways by describing my circumstances to learn to live with them. It’s not the same thing as accepting them.
    — 1 week ago with 444 notes
    #james baldwin 

    gpoyw

    re: that last reblog, how this issue relates to my life is that I am aware that I sound like this video much of the time and I am open to examining that, but I will not voluntarily subject myself to other people’s paranoid readings of my life. 

    — 1 week ago
    #confessionalbooth 
    "I gave a speech on bisexual health at a medical association conference a few years ago. One of the attendees, who is a mental health professional — he’s a therapist — wasn’t at my talk, but when he heard the topic of my speech, he told me, "Oh, when I have clients who say they’re bi, I really question it. I really make them talk it through, and we examine it very closely."

    I said, "What if they say they’re gay?" He was gay, by the way.

    He said, "Oh, in that case, we just talk about whatever they came to me for.""

    Amy Andre in Nothing About Us Without Us from her speech on problems of Physical Health in the Bisexual Community, at a bisexual roundtable on 23 September 2013 in Washington DC USA (via bialogue-group)

    It’s this shit right here that gets me so fucking mad at people who trivialise biphobia and monosexism by saying shit like “oh the worst you get is people thinking you are confused and greedy”, as if those stereotypes has no real consequences for bisexuals.

    This is a fucking therapist, a man in charge of helping people overcome mental health issues and trauma, admitting freely that he and his colleagues treat bisexuality as if it is a mental health problem and a symptom of mental disturbance to be treated and cured.

    He is telling a bisexual woman that he doesn’t treat gay people the same way and I’m pretty sure that he doesn’t treat straight folks that way, he is singling out bisexuals because he thinks there is something wrong with us identifying that way, because we are, in his mind, confused.

    It makes me sick to think that he is making clients doubt and dissect their own sexuality, blamed their bisexuality for their mental state, told them that bisexuality was a symptom or something to take centre-stage over everything because he thinks it’s not as natural or mentally healthy as monosexuality.

    This attitude towards bisexuality is endemic to the medical health industry, especially mental health, which is already a problematic field given how much stigma is attached to mental illness.

    So many times I hear bisexuals express their anger at being told by qualified therapists and doctors that they were confused, greedy and/or unstable and therefore had to jump through pointless hoops, longer and more invasive therapy sessions, or even worse, threatened with having treatment withheld or taken in a direction completely different from monosexuals because “it’s all in their heads” or “just doing it for attention”. All because the person in charge believes all the shitty stereotypes that seem ever so trivial and not worth combating to biphobia-deniers.

    And people wonder why bisexuals don’t come out to health professionals? They wonder why we don’t come out at all? They wonder why bisexuals have a rate of suicide and poor health way above straight and gay people?

    Don’t ever tell me that is trivial. Bisexuals die because of these stereotypes, they are killed by these so-called mental health professionals telling them that they need to be cured by denying themselves and are erased after death by monosexism. Fuck everyone who doesn’t think that’s worth caring about.

    (via a-little-bi-furious)

    This is why it is so important to make sure that your therapist is actually bi-competant, or at least bi-friendly. If you cannot find a therapist near you on the Bisexuality-Aware Professional’s Directory, the questions on the list are good ones to ask any therapist who claims to be able to treat bisexuals. 

    (via a-little-bi-furious)

    Important.

    (via freelgbtqpia)

    — 1 week ago with 21671 notes